Me time...

My partner in crime never allowed me to enjoy "me"! I never thought it was cool to be alone, not busy! Once, the gas ran out of my engine and I derailed the road, I started to find myself. Has anyone found themselves lost in time and space, wondering what was the point of being on this earth? Well, I always wondered that and found no answer, until I started being "me".

I sat with my emotions and trudged thru the difficult times. I began to go places by myself in a healthy manner, alone. E.D. at home and me walking the streets. I remember, the first time I went to dinner by myself. I was still in a program that was teaching us about "me" time. I had called my mom and told her "I am going to dinner myself."  I was in Harvard Square at the time, I sat down at the table and enjoyed a three course meal with no consciousness, or guilt. It was a start of the beginning of enjoying myself. I started going to places I never thought I could go... movies, restaurants, parks, coffee shops, and even Paris, France. One of my scariest adventures was living alone!!! It was a challenge! I had to be responsible and accountable for my own health. I thought I would never survive alone, but I did. I lived in Somerville, MA above a cute little pie shop called Petsi Pie and in the big city of Boston, MA.  It was with the continued support of friends and family, treatments providers, and myself that I survived the many adventures without "ED".

Today, I took a walk and enjoyed the rain, the cold, and the atmosphere. People with their umbrellas, racing off to their destinations. I was in the moment! I was with myself facing the world. I am happy to say that today I could enjoy myself, ME TIME !

                                                                                                                          -A.N.T.