Ex-hau-sta-size-er

Riding a roller coaster is like recovery...There are many ups and downs, but lots of forward motion!

I was a compulsive exerciser that caused a lot of exhaustion in my life. Everyone's body (yes, even mine), can hit a wall and crumble. I always said "Sports are my life!" I knew nothing else without it at the beginning to mid-way thru my ten years of recovery, about seventy-five percent of my life in actuality. I started as an avid ice hockey player at the age of three and transcended into cross-country and track-n-field. I began to take exercising to a whole new level once E.D. had entered my life. I was "high" as a kite at the time. I was living large and flying high. The adrenaline was pumping thru my veins. I was on top of the world, so I thought. Eventually, it all caught up to me but it wasn't until several years later, several surgeries later and injury after injury, that I started to crumble mentally, physically, and emotionally. My numbness had become painful; deadly.

In order for me to recover I had to "start-over" and re-build Balance! On my road to recovery, I was able to stop exercising and rebuild my strength nutritionally. Eventually, I was able to incorporate exercise back in my life and even complete an Olympic Triathlon. Along the way, I hit another detour. Currently, I do not exercise at all. I miss it a lot at times, but I also enjoy life without it. The urge to "hafta" exercise everyday in order to deserve nourishment is not ALWAYS there. But now I fear exercise will destroy me, it's called black or white thinking. It's the all or nothing attitude that keeps me stuck with E.D. I have the foundation and the tools to re-build my potholes in my road, I just need to take that leap, one step at a time.

Today, I will go to therapy to get some support and reflect on the week. I am going to jump back on the wagon and see a nutritionist. I hope that all my readers and followers have a wonderful day and let there be light in your path.

We all deserve to live our own life how we want too! We are all strong healthy men and women.
                                                                                         
                                                                                                        -A.N.T.